waiting at the airport....

so i am flying out to San Diego for the week to see my aunts, uncles, and cousins, and also spend new years some where warm. i got to my gate and there was a line of people getting ready to board so i just hopped in lie with them. well i am retarded, cause i tried to board the plane an hour early, and to top it off the plane was going to Portland and not San Diego! my brain didn't even register that there may be another flight leaving before mine, which proves that there is definitely something wrong with my head. i wrotee a few days ago that i had lost my keys... well guess what?, i found them in my coat! i checked this coat at least three or four times and never found them, and then all of a sudden they fell out of a hidden pocket. needless to say but, really? i was so frustrated about the fact that i had checked and found nothing multiple times. anyways i will post again soon in mid trip with stories and updates.

lost and not found...

today has been a busy day, waking up for work at four thirty A.M. and then to top it off i lost my car keys and haven't the slightest idea where they are at. the last i can remember i had them when i went to Harrison Hallow for dinner with granny and gramps. now i have no idea where they could be. did my keys fall out of my coat at the restaraunt, in the car on the way there? did they fall in the snow and i didn't here them hit the ground? this is my life, misplacing and losing everyday things and having no clue where they have ended up! often never to be seen again.
This is my first official blog entry for me so since it is such a special occassion and tonight is also christmas eve, i will go on a little bit further on a tangent of sorts. for some reason this year, christmas does not feel impactful or meaningful like the years prior have. i don't know why, but it is what it is. my attitude has been somewhat like the the grinch in that i cannot stand christmas music, or even holiday festivities. don't get me wrong, i enjoy christmas, and the holidays, not because of the presents and gifts, but because of the people i get to see and visit with that i don't normally have time to due to my busy schedule with school and work and general life obligations. tonight does not feel like christmas eve, it just feels like another day. i asked a six year old boy today if he would be upset if the amount of presents he got this year were cut in half from what was already in front of the tree, and he told me yes. his answer for some reason did not surprise me the least bit. todays children have no concept of what it is like to be in need, cause their every want is most often met by their parents, from wanting a three hundred dollar cell phone at age six to having an ipod touch and the latest video game system in their bedroom hooked up to a plasma T.V., every want is met for fear of rebellion and utter discontent and anger resulting in saying the word "NO." we have become material people in a material world and the more we have the "happier" we will be. but sadly it is never enough. i am like this to, maybe not to the same extent, but to some degree. we are pathetic and ful of lust for what we don't have, and when we finally have it we still aren't happy so we look for more. what will it take for this cycle to break, complete and utter ruin of a nation's economy?